In October of 2008 My Kitten (he was a 1 year and a month) was killed. I was dog sitting my bosses dogs and the night before the carbon monoxide alarm went off the the fire department came by and what not. So the next day, when I was going to class I kept the dogs outside (i have a dog) and my kitty, Diego, went outside too. He roamed around (he could get out of the yard and such). My boyfriend, who I lived with, was on his way back. We even passed each other on the road. By the time i reached my school, the entire 2 miles, i got the phone call. My baby boy was dead. I have never been able to forgive myself. After awhile we decided to get another cat. We ended up with two kittens. About 6 months later my boyfriend got me a dog for my birthday, so now, two dogs and two cats. This was May. On Labor day, September 7. My kittens were a year and a month. My boyfriend moved to NY and I had all the animals. I went to a barbecue for labor day and I left the animals inside since it was so hot. When I came home, my one Kitty, Fagin was dead. My new dog killed him (you could tell just by how it was). I am just…i just don’t know what to do. I sent my other kitty Otto to NY with my boyfriend. I know it was an accident. I’ve seen with my last kitty what it looks like when something is intentionally killed. This was different. I just don’t know what to do. i am completely besides myself. I can’t have children (well i can but a lot of miscarriages). So my animals are my children. I just don’t understand. Why, why again? Am I just a horrible pet owner? Everyone always says my animals are unique and they have never experienced animals like mine. And people say no one loves and cares for animals the way I do. So why do they have to die? Why do I such a bad environment for them? I am just completely beside myself and I have lost two babies in 10 months and now my third is on the other side of the country…I just don’t know. Am I the only one this happens too? Is everyone including myself fooling me? Should I give up on mixing cats and dogs?
My first Kitty, Diego was killed by my boss’ dog that i was watching, while they were all outside, but he could easily get out of the yard and roam as he usually did.
My second kitty was killed by my newer dog Huck, by accident. He just played too rough, they always played together, the two of them.
I just…don’t know what to think, or how to feel or what the F**k to do.
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